Eclipse

It wells up from deep inside
From a deep, dark crevasse where a terrible creature dwells
Banished from this mortal plane with considerable effort,
It has slept for some time only to be roused by the fool-hearty actions of man

It feeds on anguish and misery
And lusts for disharmony and sin

It whispers devious ideas and encourages pointless acts of violence

It resides in me

I felt its eyes open and its craving grow

Now I fight to keep it restrained because I remember what life was like when it roamed free and I can imagine it will be thrice with savagery should it resurface

I remember the feeling, the slow, roiling blaze that consumed my heart, my mind, my very self
The loathing degradation just waiting to be released
I remember the weight on my shoulders and the way my rusted, wretched heart would screech and wail at the idea of happiness

I remember the anger,
The hate
The blind desire to storm in and decimate, intimidate
Dominate

The rage



And I remember how much a part of me liked it